We like to make things complicated. Who knows why. It doesn't matter. We're all just learning to let go.
But here's a simple way to look at the whole picture. We are always, in our minds, our usual minds, wanting to "get there." "There" may be freedom from pain, or it may be having more money or it may be finding a mate or it may be reaching enlightenment, awakening, oneness, heaven, whatever.
We look at our state, we look at where we are, and we say, "I want to be over there, instead of where I am."
We say, "I don't want to be here, I want to be over there." "I don't want to feel this, I want to feel that."
"I don't want to feel that I am not awakened, I want to feel that I am awakened." The simple answer to this problem is this: Turn away from the thought that you are not awakened.
Then you say, "That doesn't help, I'm still here! I'm still not awakened." And again, the answer is, turn away from the thought that you are not awakened. Turn away from it. Just drop it.
Your request has been submitted and was fulfilled before you even asked. Reach for a feeling of trust. You are not being punished. You do not have to pay for past karma. You have done nothing wrong. You are entitled to peace and love and fulfillment as your birthright. But in order to align yourself with these things which have always been there for you, you need to stop struggling.
You need to stop focusing on what you don't have and just let go of that mind that believes it needs to struggle and fight and strive and fix. Turn away from the mind that believes it is alone and without help. Turn away from the mind that believes it will never be loved. Turn away from the mind that believes it will never find completion. It is not telling you the truth.
Be brave. You need not know what you are turning towards—that part is not your business. Just turn away from the thoughts of "not enough" and let it be. Just listen and expect and be content. It's taken care of. It's done, over. All is well. Just take your hand off the hot stove of lack-mind.
And when you hear yourself saying, "But I still don't have!," know that you are again focusing on the mind that believes it is alone and without help and without love and without awakening and again, just turn away from it. Feel the relief of turning away from it.
That simple gesture is what it's all about. It's the gesture upon which the universe pivots.
(Dear)God Marian. That is beautiful.
Thank you. Again.
XOXO
Posted by: Leslie | April 04, 2009 at 11:54 AM
We sure do love to dwell in the ego drama of things, don't we? Heavy sigh.
Posted by: Roia | April 10, 2009 at 07:11 PM
I love the thought, "your request has been submitted and fullfilled before you asked.
letting go, letting go, letting go.
what is it that makes us want to hold on so? When we were young and "irresponsible" we let things go, moved on...now the strangle hold. What is the science behind the habit of holding on to what hurts us instead of simply letting our shoulders drop and the baggage fall away?
Posted by: lu | April 11, 2009 at 08:13 AM
lu--the science behind it is this: the internal dialogue, the constant thought stream in the head, is what gives us our sense of "me."
When that thought stream is especially negative, despite the fact that we declare we are in pain, we are actually reveling in a very solid sense of self, a very dense, solid feeling of who we are. We ARE, as opposed to what is here and now.
If you pay attention to how you feel when various types of thoughts are going through your head, you'll notice that when you feel righteously indignant, you have an extremely solid feeling of existing.
That is where the addiction lies. We can, in fact, get quiet, or reach for a more happy thought, or a thought that resonates with relief, and thereby have a different experience. But we choose instead to hang on to that sense of negative solidity.
I will do a post about this... there's a bit more to it.
Posted by: marian | April 11, 2009 at 09:40 AM
Roia... it's just what we are used to. If you grow up in a prison and it's all you know, and you have never experienced freedom, it would definitely feel threatening at first. Ease up on yourself.
Posted by: marian | April 11, 2009 at 09:46 AM
Leslie, thanks.
Posted by: marian | April 11, 2009 at 09:46 AM
"Be brave. You need not know what you are turning towards—that part is not your business." This is so true! As a separated self who can only make sense of things by conceptualizing, I could not possibly begin to understand the Oneness that who I think I am seeks.
Posted by: Aileen | April 11, 2009 at 11:12 PM
Big sigh of appreciation, gratitude, joy....anchored it physically by feeling the "mouseclick" on Chooseagain; out of so many bookmarks,coming to visit here is an example of this turning towards....thanks for the "re-freshing" Marian
Posted by: Peter | April 23, 2009 at 11:15 PM
Hi Peter... thanks for stopping by.
Posted by: marian | April 24, 2009 at 06:52 AM